Life here has become so much more of a reality lately. I don't know if I really had a honeymoon stage in the whole 'culture shock progression' per se (it seemed pretty real from day 1), but if I did...I know that it's over now.
My heart has become so much more tied here. I have friends. And I feel for them. Their troubles, struggles, and hardships are mine to bear along with them.
I'm beginning to discover that the closer you become to someone, the more your heart is bound to theirs, and then....when their heart is hurting, yours is too....
To be honest, I feel like there’s a sharp dichotomy between some of the new teachers (we have about 10 new foreign teachers) and me. As they're taking pictures of strange food and laughing about 'china culture moments', I'm mourning over my friend's abortion, reconnecting with unsaved friends, and trying to contain my frustration about Chinese policies.
Ugh.
Regardless, as life has become so much more - well, life - I still have to remind myself occasionally that this life I live is being lived in China.
These little reminders happen at the oddest time....like when I'm waiting for the subway surrounded by way too many people....and probably not always in the best mood, His still small voice just speaks to me and reminds me that I'm in China. This is where He has placed me. In this moment, His Word is being proved true....that He will fulfill the desires of your heart when they are in line with His.
So while all my family members are beginning their normal morning routine halfway around the world, I'm waiting in line for the subway. Or looking at the moon outside of a Chinese retreat center. As I greet my kiddos in the morning - coffee in hand - my family's telling each other good night and wrapping up their day.
It's hard to believe, actually.
But it's life. And it's my life here....complete with many of the same struggles and difficulties I would face in America.... just being lived out in china - the place where He has me for this season.
And with that reality in mind, there is much joy here. When I remember that I'm in china...and that my L*rd has placed me here....renewed purpose and joy just surge into my soul.
